The Original Vidiot Strikes Again
Now I freely admit since the day I saw my very first Pong
machine, I have been hooked on video games. Only the strict
hand of my father kept me from pissing away every dollar I had in the
arcade. Whether it was the original RCA pong machines, or
arcade games, or Atari, or games on the TRS-80, I was hooked for the
duration. Later I discovered Commodore 64 games and in
college, had a healthy supply of cool games on my Mac.
Rediscovered PC games when I became a card carrying member of the Doom
generation. Since getting this old beast, first person
shooters have been one of my passions, and whereas I would not consider
myself great, I consider myself seasoned. Occassionally I
impress myself. Don't know many people who had the
patience to play through all three single player episodes of Alien vs.
Predator. I even blew through some of the parts that were
supposed to be ace breakers. Through much trial and
tribulation, I blew past the infamous fight with 20 Skaarj warriors in
Unreal. Have played through and beaten Unreal
Tournament 2003. Got through the nasty light saber
fights in Jedi Knight: Mysteries of the Sith on my first
try. Have actually gotten pretty good at the
'backpedal and strafe' shooters such as Serious Sam where you are
sometimes literally fighting through hundreds of monsters on the screen
at once.
These days, when I replay through some of my old favorites, I blow
through them without really breaking a sweat. And
sometimes, I manage to blow through a new game without too much
trouble. With the exception of a few chokepoints, I
blew through Red Faction 2 without too much trouble, thoroughly
enjoying the Powered Armor and Tank levels. My latest
project has been Hitman 2: Silent Assassin.
So tonight, I arrogantly decide to play an oldie but a
goodie. What ends up humbling me? What ends up making
me curse up a storm? What ends up showing me how rusty I
am? What game ends up showing me I have no
game? Donkey Kong.:)
Posted
Friday Night,
April 7, 2006
Horror Movie Cliches that Need to Die
Been watching a great deal of horror lately.
Netflix rules. Been chewing through a giant pile of
classics I have always wanted to see. Dario Argento is a
MASTER. Also haven't missed a single episode of
Supernatural. After chewing through so much I have
come to the conclusion that in addition to the standard cliches, which
are well discussed in the immortal classic Scream, there are some
others that just need to go away.
1) Young girl ghosts. This is now SOOO overdone. I roll my
eyes when I see one now. Now they are even invading
computer games like F.E.A.R.. Horror movie makers
need to realize that no one is ever going to outdo the little girl
ghosts in the Shining. Ever. I love a good ghost
story, but they need to mix it up a bit.
2) Haunted Insane Asylums. Was a neat and fun idea in
Hellraiser 2. Now it's just been beaten to death (no pun
intended). Run down prisons are old news too.
What's wrong with a good old fashioned Victorian haunted
house? Been a long time since a good one has been
done. And there are plenty of other types of places that
would make for a good haunting.
3) Excess Use of Maggots or Worms. I realize horror
movies often depend on shock and eww factor. Well handled,
gore can really add to the horror experience. Misued,
it's just pointless and add nothing. In something such as a
zombie movie, worms or maggots are perfectly in
place. When put into a movie such as a ghost story,
it's pointless and painfully out of place. A cheap attempt
to make it gross that doesn't really work.
4) PG-13 horror movies. There is no excuse for
this. On occasion, when the story doesn't require hardcore
content, that's fine, but these days, filmakers too worried about
making their money back at the box office deliberately water down their
content in hopes to draw in more teenagers. 1- Teenagers will go
see a cool R regardless. I think the target audience may avoid it
rather that flock to it if they know it's watered down. 2- They
always release an unrated version done properly on DVD. Why
cheat the viewers out of this for the theater experience?
Back in the day, a good horror flick would have more nudity than a teen
sex comedy, and didn't pull any punches when it came time for the dying
to start. Gone are the good old days.
5) Ill equiped protagonists. I realize the stupid teens in
trouble is a typical formula for setting up a horror flick.
But how stupid do you have to make them? I'm tired of
seeing these groups of kids go explore a 'haunted' locale without even
a decent flashlight. Kids these days can't seem to go
anywhere without a cell phone, an ipod, or a game boy or
PSP. Throw in the little make up bags and tiny back packs,
and some girls rattle more than a soldier in full combat
gear. Yet no one seems to have anything when they make
these trips. A couple years ago, a friend of mine and
I went exploring some spooky old buildings, including an old insane
asylum, and we had two large flashlights, and two
.45s. Then in these movies, when the cops show up,
they are seldom better. No radios, no mag lites, no cuffs,
no tasers, no nightsticks, no flares. Sometimes they have
as little as a small revolver without any reloads.
Only Sam and Dean on Supernatural are the only ones these days that
will pack heat and get the gear they need. There need
to be more like them. And as Julie just reminded me, back
in the day, the famous Frog brothers in the Lost Boys always packed
what they needed.
In no particular order, some of the good and the bad I've seen recently.
The Good:
White Noise. - A great modern
ghost story with a technological twist.
Suspiria. - The best horror
movie I've seen in a really long time. A must see for any
fan of the genre.
One Dark Night. - Cult early
80s film. Suprisingly good, all things considered. Took the
standard forumla and gave it a neat twist.
Undead - Low budget Australian
zombie flick that delivers. But in addition zombie action it has
a surprisingly clever and well thought out plot.
The Fearless Vampire Killers -
Almost a comedy in many respects, but the spooky vampire ball had me
grinning ear to ear.
Bad Taste - Very campy gory
gem. Peter Jackson's first movie.
Dog Soldiers - Best werewolf
movie ever.
The Bad:
Cursed - Big let down. I
had high hopes for this Kevin Williamson script, but he really hasn't
lived up to Scream.
Re-Animator - Walks the fine
line between sickening gore and comedy. Not a good tribute
to the HPL story.
Hide & Seek - Too
predictable. The only thing scary about it was Dakota Fanning.
Boogeyman - A stinker that
fails on every level.
When a Stranger Calls - Just
plain bad, and not at all scary.
The Stuff - Can't take ice
cream seriously as a monster. Or Paul Sorvino as a Georgia
militia general.
The Ugly:
Dead/Alive - I've never wanted
to laugh so hard while fighting the urge to puke.
Snuff - Sickening trash with no
redeeming features. Avoid at all costs.
Maniac - I really wanted to
like this, but it proved to be icky and made me feel unclean.
The Toolbox Murders - Makes you
wonder if the people who say slasher movies have no redeeming value,
social or otherwise are right.
Altered States - A pointless
collection of surreal scenes hidden behind a lot of pretension and
psuedo-scientific babble.
And if you hadn't guessed, I give the TV show Supernatural a resounding
thumbs up.:)
Posted early
Tuesday Morning
April 3, 2006
Cheers Hermione
Julie has been a Harry Potter fan much longer than I
have. I had always intended to read them someday, but was
in no rush to. I believed everyone in that it was a great
series with engaging stories. I'm just typically a lazy
reader, and hate waiting for sequels, and so had been putting it
off. I had just stuck to my guns over a rule I made
in that I would not watch the movies before I read the
books. Well, rules are made to be broken, and last
fall, Julie made it clear that she wanted to see Goblet of Fire right
away, so that put a deadline on me getting caught up.
I started into the first book, but it took me a while to get into
it. It was a big change of gears from a lot of the other
books on my to read pile on my night table. As the
release date drew near, I broke down and watched the three existing
movies, and it honestly spurred my interest in reading the books
more. We went to see Goblet, and I liked it, and
proceded to work my way through the rest of the books.
What struck me the most about the movies is how well cast they
were. Everyone seemed like a natural for the part they
got. Looking them up on Internet Movie Database, I was
quick to see how many of the young actors had literally done nothing
else. Julie and I often openly speculated on how they
were handling this fame, and today I found out for at least one of
them.
I know Iraq is bordering on civil war between the Sunni and Shiite
factions. I know Roe vs. Wade is going to be put to the
test in the near future. I know the neo-nazi regime
in Illinois is pushing for more gun control. I know there
is a very pointless battle going over who runs the ports.
After talking to a very conservative friend of mine in the Navy who
recently spent time in Dubai during his cruise in the Gulf, I think the
security concerns are a load of bullshit. The United
Arab Emirates are a very civilized and progressive people determined to
put the bullshit behind them and become part of the world community,
and if they run the ports, the big difference will be that they will
probably be more efficient and managed better. But I
digress.
I know the world is in the process of taking a giant bite out of the
shit sandwich (Again). Still thought it was funny
that the news story that caught my attention the most today was that
Emma Watson's new hobby had been toasting to her success rather
frequently as of late with a few cold ones.
I know I really have no room to talk. I was only a year
older than she is now when I first discovered the joys of drowning my
sorrows with a few high spirits. Still couldn't help but
roll my eyes a bit cynically when I saw all the
pictures. It seems very seldom that people in her
position learn to control that sort of thing. I'm not
exceptionally proud of my heavy drinking days, but I can say that when
being a lush became one of my favorite hobbies, I drank with a group of
very good friends who looked out for me. They made
sure I never drove, sobered up in time to go home, and stayed out of
trouble. They made sure I restricted my activities to
parties and appropriate gatherings. Celebrities often don't
have friends like that. For every one that learns to
control their behavior there seems to be a dozen others of the likes of
Paris Hilton, Lindsay Lohan, Jessica Simpson, Tara Reid and all the
other party girls that become the darlings of paprazzi photographers
out to capture scandal on film.
I know she is one of the last people on the planet I will ever meet, to
any capacity, and if I did, I'm not sure what I would say to her
regarding this new hobby. I certainly wouldn't be
hypocritical enough to tell her to stay off the
sauce. But I think a, "stay out of trouble" may be in
order. Otherwise, I think all I would have to say
would be, "Cheers. Have one for me."
Posted
Thursday Night,
March 2nd, 2006
Unpolitical Correctness Warning
Watching the news these days, I don't think it's wrong to
say that a great deal of the pain, war and unrest in the world seems to
stem from the 'Islamic Extremists', to be politically
correct. I have a few other not-so-nice names I'll refrain
from repeating here. This Danish cartoon thing just
seems to be the latest round of bullshit. In this
country nothing is sacred. We pick at
everything. Catholocism, Judism, Right wingers, left
wingers, conservatives, liberals. No one or nothing
is safe. Yet for some reason when it's the Muslims turn,
they get extra bent out of shape. They bring on
terror and misery and then wonder why people talk shit? I
think it's safe to say, that in spite of their extra ciricular
activities, they don't get any more or less derision than anyone
else. I've seen nothing to suggest they are getting
singled out. But here we are again. I saw this
movie the first time when it was Salman Rushdie. Now its
cartoons, but it has the same ending.
The pattern seems to be apparent. They can't take criticism
or a joke like the rest of humanity. They riot and kill each
other. Someone offends them. They riot and kill each
other. Seems to me we have a unique opportunity to deal a
fatal blow to the terrorists and extremists. We
just keep offending them, and let them riot and kill each
other. Enough insults, and we won't have to go to war, or
invade anyone. We can win this war with nothing more
than a sharp tongue. All we have to do is keep
provoking them and they'll keep rioting and killing each other.
Posted
Friday afternoon,
February 17th, 2006
Cable and Other Turns for the Surreal
Guess traditional cable TV providers are fighting a
serious war over customers in rural areas vs. the dishes.
They were going door to door, and while I was in the shower, they came
by and talked to Julie. They made her an offer so awesome,
you can't beat it with a stick. So we now have great
cable. It's entirely possible, now that we have VH1
Classic and the Discovery Military Channel that I will never get
anything useful done again.:)
At the very least I suppose, I got my novel off to the first of three
editors I am going to bounce it off before I try and get it
published. The wheels continue to turn, although they turn
slowly, as long as they turn, I am content.
As the holiday's approach, I continue to get acclimated into this life
of domesticity. Today, while cleaning up leaves, we met
neighbors. Over the last few months, we've gotten and
accepted numerous invitations to events populated by certifiable, card
carrying adults.:) Ordinary families with regular jobs and
children. It's been a subtle but strange change to step
into this world.
I freely admit that for most of my adult life, I've hung out with
overgrown geeks, fanboys and drunks. For quite a while, I
was the oldest in my group, and looked to by many in this group as a
kind of father figure. Even when a lot of these friends
went on to get married or have kids, not a lot seemed to change.
When Julie got here, and this new part of my life began, I don't
remember anyone coming up to us to give us membership cards to the
world of normal adults, or anyone showing us the secret
handshake. And despite the big changes and surreal
transitions in my life, I certainly haven't turned my back on my old
friends, and never will. But now there is another facet to
my existence. I now find myself in situations were Julie
and I are the young newcomers into someone else's world. A
world that almost seems lifted straight out of an episode of Leave it
to Beaver.
I suppose all things change. Doesn't mean it will get
better. Doesn't mean it will get worse. It's just
different, and as these differences creep into my life, I watch them
with a sense of amused wonder.
Posted
Sunday Night,
December 18, 2005
Good Bye Tookie. You Won't Be
Missed
I have been grinning ear to ear as I read that the
governator has denied clemency to Stanley "Tookie"
Williams. Guess he agreed that writing children's books and
talking at schools didn't make up for this:
If you had expressed remorse for these crimes Tookie, and helped the
police bring down the Crips gang that you started who have killed
countless victims over the years, I might have had an ounce of sympathy
for you. Just an ounce. All I can say now
is, where you are going, you won't need a jacket.
Posted
Monday Afternoon
December 12, 2005
Reality is Stranger Than Fiction: The Right Guard Against Terrorism
I really couldn't make shit like this up if I
tried. One thing I have been looking forward to since the
onset of the global war on terrorism is the stories of combat as they
have trickled back from the front. Jack Coughlin's
book was a great read. About every other month, a new
story turns up in Soldier of Fortune that has me captivated from start
to finish. This was the case last night, when I
went to the store and picked up the new issue.
This month's issue has an article about the ongoing
development of the SOPMOD II kit for the M-16 rifles and M-4 Carbines,
and the ongoing work on the Speical Purpose Rifle, a sniper variant of
the M-16 developed for the war on terror. Aside from
the technical discussion, they told the side story of one of the SPR's
most famous users: Sgt. Kevin Moorehead of the 5th Special Forces
group.
It seems that Kevin was part of a trio of snipers that found themselves
outnumbered fifty to one defending a hill in
Afghanistan. They successfully fought off their
attackers, but after dark, the Taliban became more
aggressive. Kevin opened fire and started dropping
them as they tried to come up the hill. They couldn't
tell where the fire was coming from, so they started raising their arms
to fire their AK-47s over the boulders. To insure a
lethal hit to the torso, every time they did this, Kevin shot them in
the armpit.
When reinforcements showed up the next morning to rescue the survivors,
they found 51 bodies with a hole in the armpit. Kevin
has since been awarded the Silver Star. He was later
killed in fighting in Iraq.
Once again, I couldn't make shit up if I tried.
Posted
Friday Morning,
December 2, 2005
A Great Book, the Earth and Other Matters
It's been over ten years since I've been sucked into my
reading enough to power through six hundred pages in one
sitting. Last night was such an
occassion. Now as I've mentioned before, this has
been a banner year for me for reading. I've probably
read more books in the last two months than I have in the last two
years. And that rate has been pretty steady all year
long. Been tearing through all kinds of things I've been
meaning to read for a long time, and then some. The stack
of books in my to read pile on my nightstand never grows significantly,
even though new books get put on it all the time.
I tear through a lot of fluff and stuff I'm not sure why I
read. I still feel a heavy compulsion to read through the
Tom Clancy sub series books. It's like a sickness.
I'm hard pressed to remember the last time I read one that I really,
really enjoyed. These day they have become little more than
political soap operas where they shit on my favorite
characters. But I still feel a compulsion to read through
them as fast as they come out. Now that they have started a
Splinter Cell series there are four series to keep up with. RME.
I still enjoy a lot of things I read, and this year I have lost count
of how many I have really, really enjoyed. In recent
memory, I loved the Patricia Cornwell novel All That Remains, and I
loved Dick Couch's books that intricately described Navy SEAL
training.
Last night however, I powered through a book I have been eager to read
ever since it first came out. I was so blown away. I
honestly can't remember the last time a book affected me so
much. This has quickly earned a spot as one of my
favorite books ever. I haven't been this moved by a piece
of writing since I first read Starship Troopers. Last
night, I read Michael Crichton's State of Fear.
Activism these days is frequently a joke. What passes for
activism these days is usually some asshole following people around and
sticking a camera in their face, hoping that if they annoy them and
pester them enough, they'll get them to say or do something
sufficiently awkward that they can edit it, make it misleading and
inaccurate, and make them look bad. A lot of times
it's also some bored blogger or person practicing what snopes.com
calls, 'slacktivism', by forwarding email petitions and ranting,
thinking that it will change anything.
But every once in a great while someone comes along with something
meaningful to say. Once in a while someone comes along who
has actually researched what they want to comment on
extensively. Once in a while someone decides to make a
point with eloquence, intelligence, and insight in such a way that even
someone who disagrees with them has to stop and think.
I've always respected Crichton and enjoyed his work.
He is intelligent, educated and objective in a way that is all too rare
today, and a very talented writer and storyteller.
Love him or hate him, he has a way of making people listen to him and
actually consider what he is saying. I often feel
Crichton is unfairly written off. People who have
seen movie adaptations of his work that aren't quite true to the book,
or that sidestep the message or science unfairly write off his stuff as
fluff, when I think in many ways, he has more right to call his work
science fiction than a lot of other people that consider themselves
sci-fi. Crichton is on a short list of authors
where I enjoy and look forward to reading his thoughts and message even
more than I look forward to reading about the action and other mundane
details of his story. Crichton is not above tackling and
exploring theories and ideas and technology that are only on paper and
some of his speculative work does embrace things like time travel and
genetic engineering that I am not sure I will ever see in my
lifetime. But he does so, so well that I can take it
seriously, and don't have to write it off as a flight of fancy.
In State of Fear, Crichton takes on an issue near and dear to many: the
environment, and the environmental movement. Although
this was a fictional story, with fictional characters, many of them are
very realistic and their statements, beliefs and ideas seem like they
could be taken straight from the front pages and evening
news. Now having finished this book, and how it
explores these ideas and issues, I don't know if I will ever even
bother to debate with an environmentalist until they have at least read
this book and considered what it had to say.
I have extremely mixed feelings about the environmentalist
movement. Contrary to popular belief, not everyone who
votes Republican is a corporate stooge that doesn't care about the
planet. I have to live here too, and I like to think that I
have as much social consciousness as the next person. I
don't doubt that a lot of environmentalists have their heart in the
right place. What bothers me, and what has always bothered
me is how the movement operates and how ridiculous some of their claims
are. The environmentalist movement is one plagued by
hypocrisy, double-standards and sometimes outright lies and
misinformation. For every environmentalist I talk to
that has even really thought about it, and has anything even remotely
useful to say, there are another twenty who seem to act as mindless
sock puppets driven by fear and hysteria: people who drive SUVs and
Lincoln Town cars to nuclear protests; people who protest air
pollution yet smoke cigarrettes and marijuana; people who protest
globilization while using cell phones and the internet to organize
across borders; people who protest evil corporations, yet fill their
lives with cars and computers and things only the corporate world can
provide. It was not surprising to see a Penn and
Teller camera crew run around an giant earth day rally in DC getting
people to sign a petition to ban 'dihydrogen monoxide' (water).
It was not surprising to see the interview with one of the founders of
Greenpeace, who left in disgust becaues he felt his movement had
strayed from a true concern for the earth, and had been hijacked with
people that had a political agenda. The ignorance the movement
can embrace is astounding and greatly rivals the religious
fundamentalists and radical right wing causes they fight and claim to
despise for their stupidity. It's sad for me to
behold how when these people get together, you can't even seem to find
two that argee with each other and how they can't even seem to find a
spokesperson who can come up with an articulate and consistent
explanation of what they want and what their goals are.
In most cases, I don't even really think or worry about the hippies and
such that abound at these rallies. If getting together and
marching makes them happy, so be it. They'll never
accomplish anything, so I don't let what they do concern
me. What does bug me a lot is how so many students
and otherwise intelligent people seem to accept groundless information
on faith and get sucked into this movement without even really thinking
about it. I talk to so many of these types willing to
say, "<x> has been/is a proven fact", yet not a single one of the
people who makes this statement is able to back up this proof with even
a single reference. Yet they throw that
kind of statement around so much, they have almost devalued the word
proof.
I'm not a naturalist or biochemist or biologist or
ecologist. I was raised around scientists and have been
dealing with, exposed to, and speaking with members of the academic
world ever since I was a child, but I am willing to admit that my
knowledge of the earth sciences is limited.
This doesn't stop me from feeling like I want to pull my hair out when
I deal with an environmentalist, simply because when I end up arguing
with one over a subject like global warming or ozone depletion, I can
still do something they can't. I can back my side of the
arguement up with specific references and research that I do know
about. I can still make grounded arguements for what
I think about certain issues, based on more than a leap of
faith. You can't win a rational argument with someone who
is unwilling to deal in facts, listen to the other side of a debate or
be swayed with logical arguments.
Unlike I often do, Crichton did not back down and was not
intimidated. He read up on the subject of the environment
for three years, and as he addresses the issues of things like global
warming and the balance of nature in this book, he so thoroughly,
completely, scientifically and logically destroys most of the standard
environmentalist arguements that I feel ashamed to have ever given them
any creedance at all. He didn't make a single arguement
without backing it up with extensive footnotes as to his
references. He accompanies this with some of the most
powerful arguements I've ever read about the dangers of junk science
and mixing science with politics.
Like any of his work, I have read and heard intelligent critiques of
it. I've even read intelligent critiques of this
book. Most of them were over minor points of some of his
conclusions. Few have disputed his overall claims and
message. Most of the attacks on this book I've seen
however, are mindless ones, by people who felt threatened by what he
had to say, and threatened that he would make people think and consider
viewpoints other than their own. This work is a
direct attack on a movement that depends on fear and hysteria and
making every opponent and anyone who questions them even intelligently,
out to be a right-wing nazi and greedy capitalist.
I would love nothing more than to gather up every environmental
activist in the world and make them read this. Make them
think about it. Make them consider what he has to say, even if
they don't agree. This book is a wonderful
catalyst for thought, and unfortunately thought is all too often
missing from debates like this. I would love nothing
more than to gather up every inarticulate stoned hippie who can't even
consistently blather about what they believe in and beat them to death
with a hardback copy of this.
But my fantasies aside, I'll just tell people to read it.
Read it all. Read his quotes. Read the appendices with his
views. Read the essay on junk science and politics at the
end. Read the bibliogrpahy. It gives me hope that
this book has been a bestseller since its release and that a lot of
people are reading it. Even if it gets even one person to
stop and think, then I think it will have accomplished something
positive. But if the glowing reviews are any indicator, I'm
not the only one who liked and appreciated what he had to say.
Posted
Friday Night,
November 4, 2005
It is Done
Ten years in conception, about three years in the works,
and approximately 233,870 words later, it is done.
It's been almost done for a while. For at least a month
now, it's only needed a few more pages. Until the
bitter end, I refused to force it. But the last
section needed to be just right, and I patiently waited for the
inspiration. Didn't know what I wanted and needed to
say in this section until I finished John B. Alexander's Future
War. Then I fought with it a bit, and decided to let
it sit. Last night it finally came out. A
bit roughly albiet, but it was done. Got so excited that I
stayed up until nearly six putting all the sections together.
Now I have a completed novel. I'm very, very happy with how
it's turned out. It's very exciting. I've never
written better. Going to let it sit for a few days, and then I'm
going to look into getting it proofread and cleaned up so that I can
start to pursue my various leads to get it published.
Posted
Friday Night,
October 21, 2005
The Vibe
This has been a banner year for
reading. In the past, about every three years or so I
would get into a reading vibe and tear through a lot of books on my to
read list. I always manage to get through a few books
every year, but on the good years, I would tear through quite a few,
and put more than a minor dent in my pile. Typically
in the slow, filler years, I would poke along an only get through a few
Star Wars novels or stay caught up on the Tom Clancy sub series
books. On the good years, I would not only read those, but
get through a lot of other books too.
That all changed when I got a computer. Suddenly the
ability to play games I had wanted to play for years, surf the web, and
get involved in fan fiction communities took the lions share of my
times, and I went a long time without a good year. I
would continue to poke at the Tom Clancy sub series books, but as far
as other books I had wanted to read, the pile continued to grow and
grow along with my guilt.
That seems to have all changed this year. Granted
this has been a year of all kinds of big changes in my life, but this
reading change seems to have come first.
If I had to point to any single event that started this, I guess it was
getting a Barnes and Noble gift certificate for Christmas last
year. Using severe amounts of discipline not to just get
the Robocop trilogy on DVD or music at the B&N store, I
specifically tracked down books from authors I used to love, but had
neglected. Hence began a book binge in which I put a
dent in the Michael Crichton, William Gibson, Janet Evanovich, Dale
Brown and other authors I wanted to catch up on. Much
to my surprise, I did catch up, and was still hungry for
more.
Now, even before fall has set in, I am caught up on Stephanie Plum,
caught up on Gibson, only one book behind on Chricton, and have even
branched out and read other things. I just finished Anthony
Swofford's Jarhead. I have finished Jack Coughlin's
Shooter. Great true stories of Marine snipers.
Julie has gotten me started on Patrica Cornwell, and I have finished
the first Kay Scarpetta book Post Mortem. Already have the
second, and will probably start it soon.
The icing on the cake has been two books that weren't part of any sort
of series or even genre that I normally pay attention to. I have
started, but not quite finished a book about George
Washington. That is probably next on my
list. The other was a book I just finished today, and
although it was not what I expected, I enjoyed it a great
deal. It was book by newcomer Curtis Sittenfeld called
Prep: A Novel. I'm glad I made an effort to find it
and read it.
I suppose my only real goal by the end of the year is to grab and read
Crichton's State of Fear. I've really been wanting to read
that one for a while. Julie wants to see the new
Harry Potter movie, which means, I will have to catch up on the movies,
and due to a promise to myself, I will have finally bite the bullet and
read at least the first four books. Been meaning to for a
while, but now I finally have a good excuse. Then with any
luck, I will be caught up on those.
Don't know what it is. Maybe it's part of the vibe coming
from my grandmother's old house. She read voraciously, and
maybe the reading vibe is coming in part from the house
itself. Doesn't matter to me. I always feel
good when I am disciplined enough to read, and finishing a book I've
been wanting to read always brings with it a sense of accomplishment
that isn't quite like anything else.
Making the mailers at Netflix really earn their pay, Julie and I have
been hard at work getting me caught up on TV series and movies she
wants me to watch, and with my own queue I am getting caught up on cult
horror movies and stuff I wanted to see. (Suspiria was FANTASTIC)
It's great, but it doesn't quite bring the same sense of
accomplishment with it as getting through good books.
Posted
Thursday Night,
September 8, 2005
Calling Rod Serling
My life has taken a turn for the
surreal. Funny how quickly things can
change. I feel like I am ending the two longest
months of my life. But I suppose the most amazing
thing about all the ordeals is that I not only landed on my feet, but
landed in a very happy place.
I think there is still part of my head that wonders when I am going to
wake up from this bizarre dream, and refusing to accept that this is
real. This is me we are talking about, and my life
has been a comedy of tragedies and messes I've gotten myself
into. But here I am, still blinking in amazement, and
as a chapter of my life closes and another begins, I'm still looking
down at the book in wonder and awe, wondering how I got here.
Julie is here. The five year era of IM relationships is at
an end. My day no longer has to revolve around
scheduled time to chat. I'm not spending another summer sitting
around a boiling apartment, sleeping naked and sitting around in sweaty
pair of shorts trying to stay cool under the vent of a swamp cooler
with a broken pump. I'm living in a place with space,
and for the first time in my adult life, there is enough closet and
dresser space to put all my clothes away. We
have a fully stocked and equipped kitchen. These sorts of
things may seem stupid to others, but for me, this is weird and new,
and not a bad kind of weird.
Julie has completely subverted my cat. Pinky loves
her. Pinky clings to her, like a child that decides to bond
with the non authority figure parent. I think it's very
cute. She was, for the longest time, used to being
left to her own devices most of the day, and seeking out attention when
she wanted it. Now she is getting used to being in a
house with two cat lovers that want to fuss over her
constantly. Makes her grumpy sometimes, but I don't think
she hates all the extra attention as much as she pretends.
My life has become so domestic and normal. But as we move
forward, we are settling into it and settling into a new
routine. Julie gets up pretty early to work. I
sleep late. She comes in around her lunch time, when
I am first getting up, and she comes in with Pinky.
Pinky, after having been left alone all night, is usually in the mood
for attention, and so when Julie sets her down, it's one of the few
times of day she will just sit, and soak up my attention. I
cuddle with Julie for a while, after Pinky roams off, before I get up
and finish the leftover coffee in the pot of our new coffee
maker. Past that, I schedule time to mow and trim the
lawn, we plan when we are going to vacuum and clean the house and
shop. We plan out meals. I actually eat
breakfast these days, and sometimes even lunch. We
take turns cooking and have full sit down dinners at the
table. Then in the evenings, we take turns picking
out movies for each other to watch. We go to
movies, and plan the same kind of utilitarian shopping trips to
Albuquerque that my parents used to plan.
I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoudlers, as all
kinds of stresses and worries that used to routinely plague me are now
gone, and now that they are gone, I almost don't know how to handle
it. It's like a weird high. It's
only been about two months since everything decided to change, and
already the last chapter of my life seems like it happened such a long
time ago. Now that I have a chance to look at the last
portion of my life more objectively, part of me can't believe how bad I
let things get. Ironic, because I used to think I was on
the upswing from my days as a drunken cashier. But
whatever. I think the fact that it already seems like the
distant past is just testimony to the fact that I want to put in behind
me and move ahead on this grand adventure with Julie.
Don't know what's coming, and at this point, don't really
care. If July and then August proved anything to me, it was
that when you bottom out, you really do have nowhere to go but up, and
it's gone up so quickly, I almost feel giddy from the heights.
Posted
Saturday Morning.
August 27, 2005
Irritation, stress and other fortunate matters.
The death of my grandmother turned out to be only the
beginning of a series of unfortunate and life altering
events. Not going to sit here and detail them all and
launch into a poor me post. At this point I feel numb from
all the bad things that have happened, and feel unusually distant and
nonchalant about it. The end results of all this tragedy
are a number of good things, and I get through most days realizing that
1) Things change, and I probably needed this. It sometimes
gets all too easy for me to coast and go through life in
neutral. 2) For every bad thing that has happened,
something equally good is going to result, and when I get through this
month, things are going to so much better in so many ways.
That doesn't stop me from getting pissy on a day to day
basis. Dealing with certain members of my family can be a
very trying experience, and there were a couple days here when I had to
force myself to count to ten and wait until I could find something to
break. Feel sometimes like God and fate is
deliberately doing this to me and deliberately testing my
patience. It isn't until I get home and find a
constructive way to vent that I realize why. When I
come home with a chip on my shoulder, GOD DAMN, I do some fantastic
writing. . . .
Two more sections and my novel is done.
Posted late
Sunday/early Monday
July 11, 2005
Pauline Spargo 6/29/1916 -
7/1/2005 Rest in Peace
I walked into my grandmothers house today around
5:30. Had been seeing a lot of her in the last few
weeks. My parents are on vacation right now, and so like I always
did when they were gone, I went to check on her. My
Aunt Emily had also been staying with her, and I had spent many a night
over the last couple weeks going over to hang out with
them. We'd always either get a Scrabble game going, or play
Rummy. Today, my Aunt Emily left, and my Aunt Lise
and Uncle JR were scheduled to show up tonight. But they
were coming in later, so I went to check on her.
I found her dead.
The cops and EMTs and the medical examiner were very kind, helpful and
I would have totally lost it if they had not been so.
In the end there were two things that twisted in me like a knife in the
gut. One was seeing her little dog sitting next to
body, very confused at why her mama was so still. The other
was finding a birthday card she had bought for me when I was looking
for her papers.
In her 89 years in this world, my grandmother was a secretary, nurse,
artist, farmer's wife and voracious reader. She traveled
the United States extensively after she was first married, and then
later explored England and France. She and my
grandfather retired to Hawaii and lived there for over a decade before
finally settling in Socorro. She and my
grandfather were married over 50 years before he died and had three
children. I was their first grandchild.
She's in a better place now, I guess she and my grandfather are finally
together again. I'll miss you both.
Posted late
Friday Night/Early
Saturday Morning,
July 2, 2005
Ramdom Life Updates
Yikes. Some pretty serious dust on
this. Been busy and staying out of trouble for the most
part.
1) Been working King of the Cage shows. Have worked three in the
last two months. I'm now on a first name basis with some of the
company big wigs. It's always fun to work the shows until
it comes time to take down the cage. It's no fun loading
that 7000 pound cage into a truck.
2) My novel is nearing completion. Did a word count the
other day and it came out to roughly 209,170 words. Needs
five more sections. Will hopefully be done before the middle of
next month. I'm very excited. It's been a
very major undertaking and I can now see the light at the end of the
tunnel. Will give me several months to clean it
up and bounce it off people before my contact gets back from
sea. But my gut feeling is, I've never written better.
Posted
Thursday Night,
June 23, 2005
Musings on Devil Music
Although I will always be, first and foremost a
metalhead, I do like all kinds of music. There are even a
few country and rap songs I can stand, although they are few and far
between. Of all the different types of metal I like,
my favorite will always be traditional metal of the likes of Black
Sabbath, Judas Priest, and Iron Maiden. But I since I like
all kinds of things now, I go through moods. And just
recently, I've been on a rare, but intense mood for all out death
metal. And this mood has led me to listen to some
stuff for the first time that I had known of for a while, but never
bothered to sit down and check out.
From the very earliest days when I first started to identify music I
liked, I always had a leaning towards hard rock. My best
friend throughout my childhood, Scott, came back from summer camp one
year and started playing me stuff his counselors had gotten him hooked
on. I took to it quickly, and soon we were big fans
of REO Speedwagon, Styx, AC/DC and what ended up being both of our
favorites, Pat Benatar. For at least four years, I
was a loyal Pat Benatar fan, and no matter where I went in life, and
what I ended up listening to, those bands always had a special place in
my heart.
Both Scott and I discovered metal with the hair metal explosion of
'83. We quickly upgraded to the likes of Quiet Riot
and Def Leppard, and soon Ratt and Motley Crue. Not
only was it all the rage at the public middle school were Scott went,
but the Catholic school where I was going. Def Leppard
became my favorite band for years.
It was about this time in my life, I was also getting very heavy
religious instruction for the first time. I had been
in Sunday school since I could talk, but as a full class in
junior high, religion was hardcore. It was at the level of
memorizing scripture and getting long serious, fire and brimstone
lectures on Catholic theology. And it didn't take
long for the nuns to start giving us the third degree about heavy metal.
Although at the time I was content with hair metal, both the metalheads
I went to school with and my friend Scott started seeking out heavier
music, and it wasn't long before I was hearing about the likes of Ozzy
Osbourne, Iron Maiden, Black Sabbath, and the Scorpions.
Part of me wanted to like it. It was so above and
beyond what I was used to. Another part of me was very,
very terrified. Coming at a time in my life where the
devil and hell were part of my daily instruction, I really couldn't
understand what the appeal of this very dark music
was. It seemed like a very unwholesome thing to be a
fan of something that even pretended to be evil.
It all culminated my eighth grade year. By this time I had
decided it was okay to listen to Iron Maiden. After reading
interviews with the band on how their horror show image was just for
show, I decided they were safe, although I still felt a bit agitated
about lyrics in early songs. Eighth grade was the first
year our religion teacher was not a nun, and we weren't doing the heavy
biblical study the same way we had before. It was a much
more relaxed situation with many of the same types of books and
instruction as Sunday school. But because it was a
daily class, we did a little more. Towards the middle
of the year, our teacher, a bit concerned with our listening habits,
decided to do a unit on music. He was surprisingly
objective about the whole thing, and the purpose of the whole unit was
to discover if bands really were actually preaching devil worship or
negative values. So we got exposed to both ends of
the spectrum and both sides of the arguement, and we were allowed to
research our favorite bands to see what they were all
about. It was fascinated and it presented me with a
opportunity to really learn if these bands were evil or not.
From the Christian standpoint we were shown many movies showing the
negative images and such used by the bands. That
didn't do much more than make me roll my eyes. Didn't think
a band was Satanic because they had things like inverted pentegrams on
their album covers. What did freak the shit out of me was
the whole phenomenon of backward messages. We were played
the original one on the Beatles White Album, and then talk quickly went
to the antics of Led Zeppelin and the alledged message in Stairway to
Heaven. When that, and Jimmy Page's fascination with
Aliester Crowley came to light, it scared me even
more.
As the unit came to a close, we came to the conclusion that most metal
stars were no better or worse than other types of rock stars and
celebrities, and that the ones that pretended to be dark and evil, just
pretended because it was cool. At the time I still didn't
understand why that was cool, but accepted that it was okay, because
they weren't actually preaching devil worship. I relaxed a
great deal and allowed myself to listen to a lot of heavier metal
objectively, and in the end a lot of the things that had initially
frightened me became what is still my favorite music to this
day. It still took me YEARS to mellow out about Led
Zeppelin. I still think Jimmy Page indulged in some
very dubious behavior, but I didn't let that stop me from becoming a
casual, but appreciative Led Zeppelin fan.
By my sophomore year of high school, there was no such thing as music
that was too dark or offensive or evil. At that point
in time, I actively sought out the heaviest and most extreme music I
could find, but soon I hit another roadblock with a band that made me
nervous and uptight and made me give pause, and made old fears
resurface. This band was Slayer. It
didn't take quite as long for me to get over this. If
anything, the extreme heaviness of Slayer took more getting used to
than their content. But in the end, I found that
whereas there were some very anti church and anti Christian metal
bands, none of them were actually preaching evil or anything bad.
If anything, they were simply pointing out the hypocrisy of the church
and their detractors. Most simply took a childish
glee in being offensive for it's own sake and to piss off their
detractors. And I reached a point where I could totally
live with that.
In all the years I sought out metal bands and looked for more music,
there were only a few I ever came across that truly preached devil
worship. The first I discovered was King
Diamond. The singer openly admitted to being into
devil worship '200%' and admitted so to Geraldo. But with
that he said, "I would never preach what I believe." So I
was able to be a King Diamond fan without any guilt.
There is actually a fairly famous and creepy ghost story involving King
Diamond though. As the story goes, Metallica was
crashing at his pad in Sweden when they were recording Ride the
Lighting. Apparently he had an altar in his living
room where Metallica was sleeping. As the story goes, one night
in the pitch black, Metallica heard a piercing scream, and when the
lights were turned on, something had disturbed the altar.
*g*. Have no idea if this is true or not, but it was
a fun story.
Later on with the rise of death metal, two bands emerged that actually
decided to preach devil worship and pagan religion. I guess
there was a whole scene of scary pagan bands in Scandanavian that when
they weren't out playing, where burning churches and murdering
priests. Most of these bands aren't around anymore because most
of their members are in jail. But on the
international scene, the death metal bands Morbid Angel and Deicide
actually came forth preaching satanism. I
didn't approve, but by the time I heard of them, I was sufficienly laid
back about them to not really pay them much heed. I
was at best an infrequent death metal fan that was very picky about
which of it I liked, and had no reason to look into what these two
groups of bozos were doing. Morbid Angel always
made me giggle, because the guitarist took the last name of a Lovecraft
god, and I could never take him seriously.
But in the thralls of my recent mood for death metal, I finally sat
down and decided I was going to check out Morbid Angel and see what the
fuss was all about. My coworker loves MA and a
number of other death metal bands, and we have been having fun
listening to the new death metal station on Netscape Radio, so when I
told him that I was curious about MA, he quickly agreed to bring in
some CDs for me to check out, and we ripped them so that I could listen
to them.
As far as death metal goes, it's okay. I've heard
better. Death, Napalm Death, and Venom are much better. But
it's not bad. I'm not going to rush out an buy any Morbid
Angel soon, but at some point it will probably end up in my
collection. But now that I have finally
listened to some official devil music, I can only smile at how I've
changed and how the fact that I am doing so doesn't really bother me
anymore. I didn't get the sudden urge to renounce God
and start praying to ancient viking gods. I didn't get a
sudden urge to read Anton LeVay or Aleister Crowley.
I didn't get a sudden urge to sacrifice animals under the full moon and
murder children. Just listened to some heavy and
angry music, and as that sort thing goes, I never mind heavy and angry
music when I'm in the mood for it.
Posted
very early Tuesday Morning,
April 19, 2005
. . . . Well it's a Looooooooooong Waaay
Back from Hellllll!!!!!!!!. . . .
Sorry. I'm still singing and amped after seeing a Danzig
concert
tonight. I haven't had this much fun in such a long time, I feel the
need to gush.
For those you unfamiliar with Danzig, it is a metal band that started
in the late 80s around frontman Glen Danzig. He was already famous for
his stint as the lead singer of the famous and influential punk band
the Misfits, that mixed goth and punk for a new, revolutionary,
signature sound waaay back in the day when punk was punk, and bands
like The Dead Kennedys and the Sex Pistols were having their day, long
before the crappy 90s grunge and alternative that tried to copy it. If
you haven't heard the Misfits, you have almost certainly heard the many
songs Metallica covered, including Die, Die My Darling and Green Hell
and Last Caress. Urban legends states that on a Metallica tour not long
after they released their versions of these songs, the crowd got so
worked up, that James Hetfield had to leave the stage to throw a temper
tantrum, because he was so mad he hadn't written these songs himself.
Glen left and was briefly with another influential punk band called
Samhain, before starting Danzig. Danzig was born in the glorious late
80s, when most metalheads were get caught up in the birth of thrash and
into the bands that followed on the tails of Metallica, that were part
of the bay area, and New York thrash explosion of 1987.
Rather than going the thrash route, Danzig stuck to Glen's punk roots,
but added a very dark, Black Sabbath metal feel. The bussword of the
day was crossover, when people were realizing the music that had the
technical complexity of the better metal, but the reckless energy of
punk was some of the best of the day.
I still clearly remember watching the video for "Mother", the first and
only time MTV played it before it was banned for Satanic imagery.
Undetterred, Danzig recorded a live video for the song which became a
staple of the MTV "buzz bin" when they were seriously pushing artists
like Faith No More and the Red Hot Chili Peppers.
I was hooked for life, and followed the band ever since. Now, tonight,
seventeen years after I first dicovered them, I finally got to see them
in a sold old club concert, and they haven't lost a BIT of their talent
or energy.
I have often quoted lyrics from Danzig songs in my stories, as I find
them very powerful and haunting. The song, "Mother", about
overprotective parents seem to fit in the story I call "The Dreaded
Part 9" perfectly, and I must admit, when they played it tonight, I had
tears in my eyes, not only remembering the emotional ordeal of writing
that story, but of the events in my life that inspired it.
The concert was fun. I needed this. I needed it badly. After all the
stress in my life, this was just what I neeeded. A night of bass so
loud it rattled my fillings. A night of feedback that could break
glass. A night of cheesy gothic, demonic stage sets. A night of both
young and middle aged metalheads from all walks of life there to honor
their idol, in a run down, converted 50's style theater. A night of
Glen's deep and haunting voice, not even slightly diminished by age,
like a heavy metal Jim Morrison.
I know a lot of the more obscure music I like is very fringe and
inaccessible and a very acquired taste. I know I'm into a lot of things
people have a hard time getting used to. But Danzig is never a tough
sell when I play it for non metalheads. If you are at all interested,
check out any of the following songs: Mother, Twist of Cain, Long Way
Back From Hell, Little Whip, Sadistikal, Godless, How the Gods Kill,
Anything, Her Black Wings or Dirty Black Summer. It's some GOOD stuff.
Okay, I'll stop gushing now. I promise.
Posted early
Sunday Morning,
March 13, 2005
My cat's new friend
Several days ago, as I was on my way to work, I found an
adorable stuffed cat in the dumpster outside of the apartment. It
was just sitting on top of some rolled up carpets and wasn't really
dirty. There were a few other stuffed animals
too. It looked very much like an unwanted Valentine's Day
present. I absolutely couldn't resist it, so I
rescued it from the dumpster and took it back to my apartment. It
became the second kitty I always wanted, but couldn't really
have.
Now I had always wanted two cats, so that I could call one Pink and the
other Floyd. Since I only ended up getting one, I
named her Pink, and Pink eventually turned into Pinky. I've
shared just about every day of my life with her for the last seven
years. But as soon as I rescued the stuffed kitty, I named
it Floyd, and finally had my pair of cats.
Pinky has always been a solitary animal, that preferred people company
to the company of other animals. In fact, her
encounters with other animals were often downright hostile and
violent. In the two weeks I kept some friend's cats, they
spent the whole time fighting over all the various food dishes and
litter boxes. So I was understandably curious how she
would take to a newcomer, even if it was stuffed. She
has taken to Floyd like a new best friend.
These days, I find Pinky cuddled up with Floyd on the easy chair at
night, when Pinky sleeps. I find Floyd on the floor
sometimes, like they've been playing and
roughhousing. And tonight I found Floyd on the floor
carefully sitting upright, like she had been carefully put
there. Sometimes Pinky is too adorable for words.
Posted
Sunday Night,
March 6, 2005
Adventures in Bachelorhood
I'm going to have to record this incident for posterity
and add it to my ongoing list of all time top cooking
disasters. Last week my mother gave me a box of
pancake mix. It was the kind where you just add water and
are good to go. I was all excited to have something new and
different, so on several different nights, I made myself a middle of
the night pancake breakfast. As a kid, it was
the first thing I ever learned how to make, and I often did with a
recipe out of one of my mother's books, in which I would make them from
scratch. When my mother showed me how to use a mix,
it almost seemed like it was cheating because it was too easy.
At any rate, these days, I am lazy enough to just use a mix, and was
happily doing so. Tonight I went to get my pot to
cook up a package of hot dogs, and found it was still covered with a
film of the batter. As lazy as I am about cooking,
I'm even lazier about cleaning. I think I actually break
down and wash all of my dishes about twice a year. In my
normal mode of operation, I just fish the ones I need out of the sink
and wash them individually, as I did tonight. Now, I
didn't feel like scrubbing out my pot, so I thought I would use a trick
I often use to wash it out. When I want to clean my
pot, I'll leave water boiling in it it soak up all the residue of
whatever I had cooked before, and then just dump the water out, maybe
quickly giving it an extra rinse or once over with the sponge if
needed. So I attempted this
tonight. When I dumped out the water, I found it had
made a very thin pancake along the bottom of the pot.
LOL. It took some intensive scrubbing to get that one out.
. . .
Posted
Wednesday Night,
February 23, 2005
A Meme (as seen on Julie's Blog)
I AM: Eric
I WANT: world domination
I HAVE: eaten too much this evening
I WISH: I was rich
I HATE: humanity as a whole
I MISS: my Cyberpunk game
I FEAR: loss
I HEAR: Assault on Precinct 13 DVD
I WONDER: Why my cat is seriously getting into movie from above.
I REGRET: too much to list
I LOVE: my girlfriend
I ACHE: after two push ups.
I AM NOT: a Country music fan
I DANCE: when trashed
I SING: see above
I CRY: when I feel like it.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: up all night. *g*
I WRITE: Fan fiction and original science fiction
I CONFUSE: supermarket managers I speak with.
I TASTE: Dr. Pepper
I NEED: a nap
Posted late Monday Night,
Februray 21, 2005 (Happy Birthday JLH *g*)
You
Won't Bring Me Down
(Title courtesy of Suicidal Tendencies)
I suppose in part I should be feeling sad right now. I
suppose in part, I should be feeling wronged and
outraged. And I suppose parts of me do feel these
things. Yet for some reason I am in a very, very good
mood. I feel like I'm doing something I should have
done a very long time ago. Gone my own way and done
my own thing. And so it shall be.
For those of you who have stood by me and Julie during this ordeal, you
have my thanks and heartfelt gratitude. For the rest
of you, I'm going to exercise a little decorum for once in my life and
not say what's on my mind. All I will tell you is so
long and farwell. It's been swell, but the swelling
has gone down.
Posted
early Friday Night,
February 11, 2005
Who says women aren't fans of violent computer games? *g*
Posted
early Thursday Morning,
February 10, 2005
Mr. S 1947-2005
During my sophmore year of high school, my very best
friend at the time, Schlake, was a year ahead of me, and had the
opportunity to take a class normally reserved for
seniors. This was our high school's one and only
psychology class. He talked a lot about it. I
found many of the ideas he discussed absurd and offensive, and decided
that I wasn't going to take this class, because it sounded like a bull
session for a bunch of quack science.
My father had other ideas, and before long, I was signed up, and got to
take it as a junior. I already had Mr. S for the only other
thing he taught, which had been driver's ed. He was a very
good driving teacher, and his classes were very fun to see how many
times you 'died' when you made the wrong call on one of his chalkboard
scenarios. I had always found Mr. S very
intimidating. You could sense his intelligence and his
perceptive abilities. He was one of those people you just
knew could read you like a book.
Everyone always tread very carefully around him, because his oldest
daughter was considered the hottest girl in school and no one
interested in her wanted to make a bad impression.
Others, like me, simply avoided getting to know him to avoid being
read.
The psychology class ended up being one of the best and most useful
classes I ever took, anywhere in any subject. As much as I
wanted to reject psychology, I was quickly drawn into the big bad world
of the human mind, and was fascinated with what he said and taught
us. At the beginning of the year, he told us, "I have one
goal for you this year. I want you to learn to be
aware." For everyone who took it for an easy elective
grade, I don't think they really did. For others, like me,
the world suddenly became a much more complicated and fascinating
place.
It was often lamented, by both Mr. S. and class alumni, that we were
very, very guarded as a class. That we simply didn't open
up and talk about ourselves the way he had hoped. We
had heard stories and rumors about psychology class sessions getting so
intimate and personal that people left the classroom
crying. We were intimidated and decided at the
outset that we would take steps to make sure it never
happened. Mr. S was undeterred however, and went
about teaching us what he could. And in the process
we discovered what a intelligent and fascinating person he
was. He had been a hippie that had been drafted, and
went to Vietnam to work as a typist for the CIA. He had
studied at the University of Arizona and UNM. He had even
known my aunt and uncle at UNM, and they had been part of a hippie rock
band. My parents still have the single on an old 45.
The world is a different place for me now because of him.
What he taught me serves me each and every day of my life as I deal
with people. I feel like a better person for 'being
aware'. So I was very saddened to learn that he died
at the young age of 57, and died mere days after his third
wedding. After his first two wives died untimely
deaths due to traggic illness, I'm sure he just wanted to have
someone. As terrible as this must be for his new
wife, I'm glad he didn't die alone.
I'll miss you Mr. S.
Posted
early Thursday Morning,
February 10, 2005
World Building 101
Although I have a dozen different fan fics that need
attention, and unfullfilled plans for the ETBC, what has been drawing
most of my creative energy is my novel. As you
all may or may not know, I started a science fiction novel over a year
and half ago, and over the last four months or so, as inspiration hit,
have been putting a lot of work into it.
Still needs a ton of work, but I am very, very, very happy with how it
is turning out, and when I get it to my potential agent this fall, I
have no doubt that I will have solid work to show him. The
dreaded part 9, nonwithstanding, I have never done better work.
This has been a new experience for me. It took me a
while to figure out why working on this felt so weird, but in the end
the answer proved to be very, very simple. For the
first time in a long time, I am not only telling a story, but building
a world.
The best writers IMHO all seem to be good at one thing.
Especially within' the sci-fi and fantasy genres. The best
writers not only tell a good story, but build a world behind
it. Whether you are talking about Middle Earth, and
the six spoken and written languages J.R.R. Tolkien created for it, or
the Dune universe of Frank Herbert with it's own terms and history, you
always knew from page one that there was going to be so much more from
the reading experience than just the story. You
were really going to feel like you had visited someplace
else. You felt like you had watched more than a play on a
stage with painted backdrops and scenery. You felt
like what you had just witnessed was only a small part of a
universe.
The dawn of the internet seems to have turned every fan and their dog
into a writer. Any popular movie or book or
series instantly seems to have dozens of fans eager to add to a world
that has captivated them. A depressing number
of these so called fans seem instantly ready to pander to the lowest
common denomiator and write slash. I recently finally
had an opportunity to ask actual gay people what they thought of slash,
and I had to grin with how they found it offensive and
misrepresenting. They hated the idea that their
lifestyle was being used for shock value and to upset sensitive
readers. But I digress.
As writing and film and TV evolves, we as a culture seem to actively
seek out not only good stories but ones in vivid worlds. We
want our escape to be complete. Even if the story in
question is hinging around pivotal and world shaking events, we still
want to know that it isn't the only thing going on. We
still want to know that that backdrop is more than just a backdrop, and
that if we read about our heroes saving the world, we want to have a
taste of that world they are saving. And the most
revered story tellers in our culture aren't just masterful
storytellers, they are also masterful world builders.
Yet good world building seems to be the things that separates the good
from the great. In this bottomless pit of fan fiction that
the net has become, I suddenly realized how seldom it is that people
take that big leap and build a world for their story to take place
in. So many simply borrow a world, and try to tell a
good story in it, taking advantage of the fact that someone else did
the real work of establishing characters and building a
universe.
I have certainly done this a great deal. As a gamer, the
practice of world borrowing is not only common, it's
encouraged. A published gaming world like Dungeons and
Dragons' World of Greyhawk or Cyberpunk's Night City of the year 2020
are detailed worlds just waiting for a game master to pick them up and
tell stories with. It's how I learned to tell a
story. Been a gamer for 25 years now, and there has been no
greater joy that taking a world like Greyhawk and making it my
own.
But at the same time, a part of me has been bursting at the seems to
take the next big step. To create my own
world. And in writing this novel, it has been a very
educational and fullfilling experince to do so. When
I finally put my finger on what was weird about this project for me, it
was the fact that I really was starting from scratch, and with each new
chapter I complete, not only does the story advance, but another facet
of the world gets detailed. I don't know at
what point I sat down and realized that I had built a world with it's
own history, it's own characters, it's own deal. But not
only had I built a world, I was acclimated to it, and thinking in terms
of it when I write or develop the story. It's been
very strange to be working without a net, and without anyone else's
work as a cushion.
A friend of mine, who shall remain nameless, recently confided in me
that she was very irritated with how Trixie and other fan fic writers
threw around the word muse. She was of the opinion
that no one who borrows a world and/or characters had a right to say
they had a muse. She seemed to think someone needed
to exhibit true creativity before they could claim
that. Wasn't sure what to think of that one way or
the other, because I am not privy to the specific meaning of muse or
it's origin or true meaning.
All I can say is that it has been a very thrilling and fullfilling
experince to do this. This is not the first time I
have done so. I have forsaken published source materials
for games in the past and come up with my own worlds.
The world I use now in Dungeons & Dragons is my baby. I
sat down one night with a few sheets of graph paper and wrote out four
thousand years of history over the course of a couple hours that has
been the basis for a seven year campaign.
In college, I worked on an original novel which ended up being little
more than a really bad Robocop 2 ripoff.
Done two screenplays in original worlds. This is the
first time however, that I have felt very, very pleased with the
results.
I can only hope that by the time this beast is done, the agent who is
going to read it will also feel I have told a story and built a world.
Posted
Sunday Night,
Februrary 6, 2005
Not only is he a stupid fat fuck, he's a
hyprocrite.
So in the short time since he demonized American gun
culture and ranted about our obsession and paranoia, Michael Moore's
bodyguard is arrested for trying to get a gun on a plane and take it to
New York where he does not have a permit. Give
these types enough rope, and they always hang themselves.
And yes, for the record, I hate him, and think he's a casualty of the
MTV generation. He's one of these self-important demogogues
that thinks if you stick a camera in someone's face and annoy them as
much as possible, that it's activism. He's no more
than a slick talking Tom Green who takes things out of context, or
outright lies by clever editing.
I hope this incident gets plastered all over the papers so that people
can see he doesn't practice what he preaches, and that he embraces a
double standard. Guns for personal protection are
okay for him, even if his bodyguard decides the laws do not apply to
him, but I guess it's not okay for the rest of us.
Posted
Saturday night,
January 23, 2005
Year in Review
Everyone has been posting these annoying lists all over
the common news websites about the best and worst of
2004. Thought I could do my own. First a
few trivia tidbits.
1. From last years predictions, I correctly predicted the supremacy and
high reviews of Half-Life 2. I predicted the demise of the
Assault Weapon Ban, and after the elections, it looks like it will stay
gone for a while. Predicted that court challenges to
video games have maintained that they are protected by the 1st
admendment. Otherwise didn't do to good.:) Oh
well.
Without further ado:
Best Movie of the Year:
Of all the new movies I watched, I think the one I enjoyed the most was
the Dawn of the Dead remake. Ended up being the year of the
zombie movie for me.
Best Video Game of the Year:
Of the ones I actually got to play, Far Cry was far and away the
best. Battlefield: Vietnam and Unreal Tournament 2004 get
an honorable mention.
Best Day of the Year:
Tie for First: 1) Sept. 13 saw the demise of the last of
the Clinton gun control measures, with alarmists unable to even get a
renewal up for a vote in the House. So far there has
been none of the predicted crime waves and carnages.
Still waiting for the sky to fall like the gun control Chicken Little
impersonators keep predicting. 2) After a year long
friendship, I asked out and became the boyfriend of
Julie. Made this year very worthwhile all by
itself. 3) Election Day. Felt SO good to get
the last laugh.
Best New Music of the Year:
In terms of new music that came out this year, I have to go with
Ministry's Houses of the Mole. Another angry rocker
from one of my favorite bands. In terms
of new music that I just discovered this year, it was the year of
Futurepop. Went through intense phases of
listening to Suicide Commando, Icon of Coil, Apoptygma Berzerk, and
Assemblage 23.
Best New Firearms of the Year:
This year was a catalyst for small arms development.
There are some exciting new developments on the horizon with the DREAD
centrifuge weapon, the microwave riot control device and a prototype
laser rifle. Lots of weapons
appeared. The Special Forces have adapted the
SCAR-L/SOFCAR-L and SCAR-H/SOFCAR-H assault
rifles. Lewis Machine & Tool
introduced the Mk 12 Recce Rifle to promote the new Remington 6.8mm
Specail Purpose Round. Barret Firearms followed suit
with the new M468. Lewis Machine & Tool
also developed the Monolithic Rail Platform. The first M-16
to have a quick change barrel system. Rock River Arms
won the FBI and DEA contract for AR-15s with their very excellent,
dependable and torture tested LAR-15. Barret
pushed forward with the development of the 25mm Payload
rifle. Smith & Wesson introduced the most
powerful handgun in the world, putting weapons in .454 Casull to
shame. So many fine weapons.
The one that has captivated me the most, and has me the most excited is
a weapon which may finally replace the M-16 in U.S. Army
inventory. The new Heckler & Koch XM-8 is
proving to be a very excellent and dependable weapon, that may see
service by the end of the new year with the Stryker Combat
Brigades. So I give it weapon of the year.:)
Best Book of the Year:
Of everything I read this year, I think the most entertaining
book was Air Battle Force by Dale Brown. Really need to
read something besides techno-thrillers this year. . . . .
Best Sports Event of the Year:
Although my Steelers sre on the fast track to the Superbowl, the game I
enjoyed the most was Game seven of the Red Sox vs. Yankees at Yankee
stadium. I had never seen so many pissed and
disappointed people until election day. *g*
Best Writing Accomplishment This Year:
I had a very, very prolific summer writing fan fiction. Was
especially pleased with my vampire story Boots in the Fog, and my
stalker story Hero Worship. What I am most
proud of having accomplished this year was the work I have done on my
novel. It's shaping up into a very, very good
story. If inspiration continues, I may have a
book by the end of the year. A good one, that I could
get published.
Can't wait to see what this year holds.:)
Posted
early Saturday
January 8, 2005
The
End of an Era
On the very last night that my entire family was together for
the holidays we went out for dinner to the Socorro Springs brewpub for
a special occasion that had nothing to do with the normal holidays this
time of year. My father retired.
In 1967, straight out of the Air Force, my father found a job as an
observer for the National Radio Astronomy Observatory. He
first worked in Green Bank, West Viriginia, but eventually his work
with NRAO brought him to New Mexico when they first began construction
of the VLA.
Thirty seven years later, today, he worked his very last
day. In this age when people constantly change jobs,
and put career ahead of family, and use work problems as an excuse to
slack, he was a good example and positive role model for
me. Taught me that no matter how bad things are, and
how shitty or unfair a work situation is, you should always do your
best and have good work ethic. Taught me even if
things aren't so great in the beginning, if you stay at something long
enough, and work hard, your work will pay off. Taught me that
work is work, and you don't have to like it, you just have to do it,
because nothing in life is free, and bills don't pay
themselves.
Beacuse of wise investments with his retirement funds and pension, he
will still be getting as much as he did when he worked, and suffer no
hit to this lifestyle and income.
It's weird to think of him retired now. He has been NRAO
since before I was born. I've never known him as anything but an
NRAO employee. But whatever he occupies himself with now, he's
earned it.
Go Dad!:)
Posted early
Friday morning,
December 31, 2004
To Dimebag Darrel.
To the members of Pantera and fans who kept thrash metal alive
in the
90s: Rest in Peace. It ain't right.
Posted early
Thursday morning,
December 9, 2004
A Post of Novels and Being a Stubborn Pain in the Ass
Although I have been bugged to do so twice now, I have flatly
refused to participate in the National Novel Writing
Month. It's not that I don't like the
idea. I think it's a very good
idea. It addresses the issue of why people
won't write. The fact that they won't actually sit
down and do it. They can't or won't make themselves
start. This has never been my
problem. After having leapt into fan fiction with
both feet and written 85+ stories and over 1.2 million words of it, I
don't feel the issue of getting started is my problem.
As is well known, I'm just a stubborn pain in the ass and don't like to
be told how to go about doing things like this. The
idea of anyone telling me when and how and how much I had to write
automatically kicked in my knee jerk reaction to
rebel. That having been said, I was kind of
swept away by the excitment of the idea, and everyone leaping in with
both feet to write a novel. So I took a look at the
book I started about a year ago, and got excited to work on it again.
It's been my standing rule to never force work on my book.
I write if and only if I feel particulalry inspired to sit down and
write a certain scene, and I know it's going to turn out
right. If I try to force it, I will compromise
the quality of what I am doing.
Haven't really felt like working on it very much this summer, because I
was hammering away on fan fiction. Once I hit massive
writer's block on fan fiction, and once everyone got excited about
writing original fiction, the long dormant inspiration to work on my
book returned.
At last count, it was about 30,000 words. I think it's
going to be at least 100,000 before it's even close to
done. But work on it continues to occupy my nights when I'm
not in the middle of some game. If inspiration
continues to strike, I may actually get all the setup written before
I'm old and gray.:) So I guess I am grateful to the whole
NaNo thing for something, even though I proudly didn't
participate. Got me excited and jump
started.
[horribly arrogant statement warning]
When I win the Hugo, Nebula and Philip K. Dick awards for science
fiction, I'll have to remember what inspiried me. *g*
[/horribly arrogant statement warning]
Think I'll see where my writing takes me tonight.
Posted early
Sunday morning,
December 5, 2004
Zombie
Movie Checklist.
Night of the Living Dead - Original - Check!
Night of the Living Dead - 1990 Remake - Check!
Dawn of the Dead - Original - Check!
Dawn of the Dead - 2004 Remake - Check!
Day of the Dead - Check!
28 Days Later - Check!
Resident Evil - Check!
Return of the Living Dead - Check!
Return of the Living Dead 2 - Check!
Return of the Living Dead 3 - Check!
Still need to see:
Shaun of the Dead
Yes, as a matter of fact I have wasted entirely too large a portion of
my adult life watching zombie movies.:) Haven't even really
stuck to watch my standard ghost story horror flicks, although upon
rewatching Event Horizon, I had forgotten how good that movie
was. My taste for horror movies comes and goes in
phases. I watched a lot of supernatural horror flicks when
I was trying to inspire myself to finish my Fright Night
story. Even managed to sit through The Shining
again. Went through my annual ritual where I get
brave enough to watch a seriously fucked up horror movie, and managed
to sit through The Hills Have Eyes. I think for my next
annual seriously fucked up horror attack, I need to track down
Suspiria.
BTW, of the above list, 28 Days Later and the Dawn of the Dead remake
are far and away the best.
Posted late
Tuesday Night,
November 30, 2004
. .
. . And will the world stay standing still, just for me. . . .
I sit here both sadddened and happy beyond words at the weekend
that just passed. Of life's sweet sorrows, perhaps
the hardest one to deal with is saying good bye to a person you
love. Yet having to do this means there is someone in
your life that you do love, and that always sweetens the
pain. It's been a long time since any
kind of pain in my life wasn't punctuated with the flavor of bile that
I knew I was going to taste for the rest of my life.
No one was more surprised at the development of this relationship than
I was. This all blindsided me in a very big
way. For a number of reasons, I have not discussed my
new relationship here until now, but for the record, I am seriously
involved with and head-over-heels in love with Julie.
Breaking up with Lisa left me feeling broken in a way I felt was never
going to be fixed. Even after I eventually
lifted myself out of the rage and despair, my feelings on love and
relationships was cynical at the very best.
Then this all sneaked up on me.
On our two month anniversary as boyfriend and girlfriend, Julie came
out to visit me for the very first time. I cleaned
this rat hole from top to bottom. Washed all my dishes,
cleaned my bathroom, washed every piece of clothing I owned, vacuumed,
scrubbed the cat box and cleared up a great deal of the
clutter. Didn't get to the kitchen floor, and the kitchen
floor really needed it, but whatever. Once the weekend was
underway, I found myself having to continually suspend
disbelief. Kept wondering when I was going to
wake up from the dream. There was a dark, inky black
corner of my soul that refused to believe that something this good was
happening to me. Once I got past that, and I realized how
happy I was, everything went by far too fast.
I took her on the 10 minute Socorro cultural tour. Showed
her all the landmarks from "Mystery of the Raving Psychopath". We
went to my boss's to watch King of the Cage on
Pay-Per-View. Had a South Park and Jackass viewing
night. Had a scary movie night with The Gift, and
Event Horizon. Basically wasted time in fairly
frivolous pursuits. Guess it was one night when we
were cuddled up under a blanket watching something, when my cat came up
to join us and cuddle and be happy, that I held her and realized I
really was happy again in way I never thought I would ever be again.
I cried when she left today. But I don't feel scarred or
damaged from this pain. I feel like my tears were
washing away the blood and bile in my soul. I feel cleansed
and calm. I feel like I've won a battle against the
hate and rage I often burn as fuel to get through the rough parts of my
life. There were times when I felt like that was all I
had. Now there is something else, and it's a very
wonderful something else. And I'm going to cherish this
something else for all it's worth.
Posted late
Monday night,
November 22, 2004
My Thoughts on the Election
Today I had several very civil conversations with people about
politics and the election. All involved were quiet
and respectful, regardless of our viewpoints. My conversations
were even civil with the people I normally get into it
with. I was happy beyond words that the results did not
damage any of my friendships with people who disagreed with me, and we
all walked away still respecting each other and our differences in
opinion.
In continuing this tradition, I am not going to post my thoughts on the
matter openly here. I will simply link to
them. If you will be offended by the rant of a pro-NRA,
pro-Bush person, I will understand perfectly if you choose not to read
it. If you do want to read it, the rant is
here.
Posted late
Wednesday night,
November 3, 2004
Master of Five Magics. A
Halloween Psycho Survey
Another Halloween has come and gone. But I
can't let it go quietly without another PSYCHO SURVEY.
1. Name the Five Scariest Movies You've Ever Seen: The Shining,
Event Horizon, The Ammityville Horror, The Exorcist, Almost Dead.
2. Name the Five Scariest Songs You've Ever Heard: Requiem
for Soprano, Einsturzende Neubauten - Armenia, Skinny Puppy - The
Mourn, Skinny Puppy - Draining Faces, Slayer - Gemini.
3. Name the Five Scariest Books You've Ever Read: The Hot
Zone - Richard Preston, The Lurker at the Threshold - H.P. Lovecraft,
The Cellar - Richard Laymon, The King in Yellow - Robert Chambers, The
Best of H.P. Lovecraft - H.P. Lovecraft.
4. Name the Five Best Pranks You've Pulled on Halloween or any
other time.: My faked suicide in high school, Time I
dressed as the Grim Reaper and scared little kids, The fake
Satanic ritual we held on the golf course, including fake sacrifice,
The fake story with negative feedback prank at Jix.
5. Name the Five Best Costumes You've Ever Worn: My robot
costume in second grade, my mummy costume in fourth grade, my cultist
costume for my senior year, my Grim Reaper costume for my junior year,
my hazmat suit for a number of Halloweens.
Hope everyone had a happy Halloween.
Posted early
Monday morning,
November 1st, 2004
My brother rocks.
My brother is in town on a hurricane trip this weekend, for a
funeral. He brought me something very, very
cool. Recently, when Ministry played in Denver, Silencer's
bass player, Jeff "Evil" went to see them. My brother and
other band members were at different club show watching
Thro-Cult. Jeff showed up and told them, "Hey.
Ministry is coming to this bar" Sure enough the band
showed up, Keith went up to Al Jorgensen and got me a personalized
autograph. I'm going to frame it.:)
You rock Keith.
Posted
Saturday afternoon,
October 2, 2004
Perks of working a Mixed Martial Arts Event. *g*
Eric and the Ring Girls for Desert Extreme 2
Posted
Monday evening,
September 27, 2004
Perks of being a Web Designer for a King of the Cage Fight Promoter. *g*
King of the Cage Ring Girl Lupita.
King of the Cage ring girls for November 24, 2004 event at Soboba
Casino.
Posted
Monday evening,
September 27, 2004
Psycho Survey: In the Dead of the Night
1. What if anything will keep you up all night?
Like I ever needed an excuse. *g* Doesn't take much
doing. Have been a night owl since college. Will be
up till 3:30 on a typical night. If anything keeps me up
unexpectedly, it's either too much caffeine, or having read or watched
something scary.
2. If you find yourself up all night,
and not in a hurry to go to bed, what are you usually doing?
I'm a world class mouse potato. I can surf for hours.
Especially if I find a fun to site to surf on like Internet Movie
Database or Snopes. Middle of the night is also the best time to work
on fan fiction without interuption. When inspiration
strikes, I can work all night, and the night passes in the blink of an
eye. Middle of the night is also the best time for
uninterupted sessions on computer games. A favorite middle
of the night past time in days gone past was finding a really intense
movie I get into and watching it in a dark room with no outside
interruptions or distractions. Heat, Blade Runner and
Strange Days were favorites for this.
3. How late will you sleep when
you have been up all night?
As long as I don't have to work or be anywhere, if I have literally
been up all night, I will sleep till 3 or 4 in the afternoon.
That's all for now.
Posted
early Sunday morning,
September 26th, 2004
RIP Johnny Ramone
We'll miss you. Hey Ho! Let's go!
Posted
Saturday evening,
September 18th, 2004
Psycho Survey: The Most Uninformative and Useless Meme Ever . . . .
To all participating, answer these questions on your blog, and I
guarantee you, no one will know you any better than they did before:
1. Have you ever worn jeans?
Yes
2. Have you ever taken a shower?
Yes
3. Have you ever eaten breakfast?
Yes
4. Have you ever had a cold?
Yes
5. Have you ever woken up in the morning?
Yes
6. Have you ever used a computer?
Yes
7. Have you ever watched a movie?
Yes
8. Have you ever seen a cat?
Yes
9. Have you ever witnessed a rain storm?
Yes
10. Have you ever had a conversation with another person?
Yes.
Feel free to add additional questions of equal import.:)
Posted
Thursday,
September 16, 2004
21 Assault Rifle Salute
Ten years ago, a poorly, written, poorly thought out,
piece of reactionary feel good legislation was signed into law,
accomplishing nothing more than restricting the Second Amendment rights
of law abiding American citizens. People like me,
enraged at this encroachment of our rights went to the polls in droves
and the Republicans won control of the House and Senate for the first
time in 40 years. Even the speaker of the house was voted
out of office for this travesty. Despite all
the claims and doctored polls saying people wanted this, the 94
elections proved otherwise.
During the ban on so called assault weapons, the nation saw some of the
worst crimes ever, committed by criminals who were not deterred by this
law or any other. Many ruefully admit that the
ban did nothing to stop Columbine, Jonesboro, or the North Hollywood
Bank Shootout.
The only way the ban was passed was with a sunset clause, stating that
in ten years, unless there was a vote to renew it, the law would go
away. That day is today. House
majority leader Tom DeLay won't even bring it up for a vote, because
the votes are not there to pass.
The gun control people are screaming bloody murder. They
always predict doomsday in situations like this.
Their biggest piece of so called evidence is a Department of Justice
study done under Clinton that says crimes against cops have gone down
66 percent. But they very selectively quote this
study. This very same study states that the decline in
violent crime had begun three years before the ban was passed, and was
happening anyway. This very same study said there is
absolutely no proof that the ban had anything to do with it.
Similar studies by the CDC and other groups all come up with the same
conclusion. There is no proof that it accomplished
anything.
The gun control crowd is once again quoting their
polls. The sad fact of the matter is most people
polled about this don't realize something. THE BAN
HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MACHINE GUNS. IT HAS NOTHING
TO DO WITH FULLY AUTOMATIC WEAPONS. They have been illegal
since 1934. They are just as illegal now as
they were before the ban expired, and before it was passed.
What did the ban have to do with? Guns that looked
scary. It was about things like pistol grips, bayonet lugs
and flash suppressors. Because of course we all know
how many drug dealers use bayonets and re-enact Pickett's charge.
*RME*. The ban also did nothing about the
weapons already in circulation. I was the proud owner of an
FN-FAL with all the offending parts. I bought it during the
ban. It was cheap and easy to find.
The gun control movement doesn't really concern itself with fact or
logic. They would have people believe that everyone can now
go out and buy a machine gun like Rambo's and go on a
rampage.
It was absolutely priceless how Kerry accepted a hunting weapon as a
present that would be illegal if his version of the ban gets
passed. Dumb fuck.
I've been counting down the days to today for ten long
years. Now the last of the damage done by Slick
Willie has been undone, and law abiding citizens can now enjoy their
Second Amendment rights. And if the gun control
crowd manages to get another stupid law passed, all I have to say is,
we are just as ready to deal with you as we were in
1994. We don't forget. We
will fight you. We will vote.
Good ridance assault weapon ban. You won't be missed.
Posted
Monday,
September 13, 2004
Mexican Industrial Music
Now, I don't consider myself racist when it comes to
music. In fact if there is anything true about a lot
of music I love, it's that it's very
international. Many consider Jimi Hendrix the
godfather of modern metal. Metal quickly spread
to the entire world. Yngwie Malmsteen made metal from
Sweden. Mama's Boys and Therapy made metal from
Ireland. King Diamond and Amorphis made metal from
Denmark. Gorky Park made metal from Russia.
Trust made metal from France. Loudness and EZO made metal
from Japan. The list goes on.
Now in the realm of techno and industrial music, Europe is a
powerhouse. Denmark and Germany in particular.
Recently on Netscape radio however, I have been hearing a lot of music
from two Mexican industrial bands in particular.
I have three words for these bands. Give *it*
up *sigh*
Posted
Thursday
September 9, 2004
Random
Life Updates
Haven't been in a blogging mood. Been too busy
writing. But now that writer's block has finally struck
again, at least for the moment, thought I would update this.
1) I am seriously considering scrapping the sequel to my cheesecake
story. I'm not getting anywhere with it, and it's just not
breaking any new ground or doing much for me. Have too many
other projects to consider.
2) 13 days until the "assualt" weapon ban expires.
The gun control crowed is raising bloody hell, but to little
avail. Too many congressman and senators remember what
happened in 1994.:)
3) Got an extremely interesting package in the mail today from a
fan. It contained panties. I never dreamed in a
million years that as a fan fiction writer I would end up with
groupies.:)
4) Went to another King of the Cage event at the Sky City Casino
in Grants last Saturday. It was fun as always.
The fights were very short and brutal. Heavyweight
contender Joey Villasenor knocked his opponent out cold in 6 seconds,
with one good punch. The paramedics were up there in very
short order with a spine board and oxygen, but Hank "The Vise" Weiss
eventually came to and walked out under his own
power. This was the first time I had ever seen
women fight in King of the Cage, or any Mixed Martial Arts
competition. That fight was short and brutal
too. I felt the need to be a smart ass after the
fight and told my friends Alan and Jared, "A woman must have to be
extremely brave to fight in King of the Cage, because the announcer
announced their real age and weight." *g*. They were
suitably amused. I may be working the Desert Extreme
2 fight my boss is putting on this weekend as a stager.
Will have boxing, kick boxing and MMA fights. My job
doesn't pay much, but the work is varied and always interesting.
5) During said trip, my boss gave me money to do something I had never
done before: I gambled. Before I ever tried this, I didn't
trust slot machines as far as I could throw them. Now
that I have had a chance to try them out, I REALLY don't trust them. . .
6) Today I got to transcribe a paper written by our beloved
Mayor (NOT . . .). He is making a run for State
Representative and we are hosting his campaign site.
I discovered much to my saddened amusement that he is completely
illiterate. He tries to sound impressive with big
words, but puts sentences together about as well as a well trained
chimpanzee. Makes me cold all over how this
illiterate is an MD that has been practicing medicine since 1975. . . .
7) Silencer has completed drum and rhythm guitar tracks for
their new album. Should be completely recorded by the end
of September. I can't fucking wait. Despite
having 11 songs, my brother tells me the total length will be 36
minutes of very dense thrash. I told him, "God damn, Keith, are
you trying to re-record Reign in Blood?" He told me, "Hey, it
worked for Slayer." *g*
Until next time, stay tuned on this same psycho channel at this same
psycho time, for another psycho entry.:)
Posted
Tuesday Afternoon
September 1st, 2004
Psycho
Survey: Cult Shit.
1. Cult Movies: Highlight or somehow bold every one you've
seen. Italicize the ones you own.
A Clockwork Orange
Akira
Ghost in the Shell
The Legend of the Overfiend
The Hunger
Resevior Dogs
Pulp Fiction
The Wild Bunch
The Killer
Hard Boiled
Pink Floyd: The
Wall
The Crow
Heavy Metal
Heavy Metal 2000
The Matrix
The Castle of
Cagliostro
The Blues Brothers
Monty Python's
Holy Grail
2001: A Space
Odyssey
Cecil B. Demented
Pink Flamingos
Serial Mom
The Decline of Western Civilization
The Decline of Western Civilization II: The Metal Years
The Texas Chainsaw Masacre
Heavy Metal Parking Lot
This is Spinal Tap
Kentucky Fried Movie
Repo Man
Amazon Women on the Moon
The Naked Lunch
Strange Brew
Enter the Dragon
Supercop
Fist of Legend
Jackie Chan's
Police Story
Armor of the Gods
The Doom Generation
Se7en
Strange Days
Blade Runner
Blade Runner: The
Director's Cut
Alien
Aliens
The Terminator
Scream
Orgy of the Dead
Plan 9 From Outer Space
Forbidden Planet
Godzilla: King of the Monsters
El Mariachi
Desperado
Taxi Driver
Dogma
Clerks
Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon
2. Cult Sci-Fi. Highlight the movie franchises or TV
shows you have followed regularly
Robocop
Tremors
The Matrix
Max Headroom
Star Trek
Star Trek: The Next Generation
Star Trek: Deep Space Nine
Star Trek: Voyager
Star Trek: Enterprise
Jurasic Park
Battlestar Galactica
Galactica 1980
Babylon 5
Farscape
Dr. Who
The Terminator
Lord of the Rings
Robotech
Alien Quadrilogy
Predator
Men in Black
VR 5
Mantis
Stargate SG-1
Star Wars
Species
3. Cult Horror. Highlight the franchises you have followed
somewhat regularly
Friday the 13th
Nightmare on Elm Street
Halloween
Scream
I Know What You Did Last Summer
George Romero zombie movies (Night of the Living Dead, Dawn of the
Dead, Day of the Dead)
Return of the Living Dead
Camp Sleepaway
Hellraiser
Exorcist
Ammityville Horror
The Howling
Evil Dead
From Dusk till Dawn trilogy
4. Cult Events. Highlight cult events you have
attended.
Rocky Horror Picture Show screening
Lolapalooza concert
Star Trek convention
Coffee house poetry reading
Burning Man
Rainbow gathering
Grateful Dead concert
Ozzfest concert
Rave
Purity Test Party
Ice Blocking Party
Dungeons & Dragons/Gaming
convention
5. The Cult. List songs by the band The Cult that you like:
American Horse, Rain, She Sells Sanctuary, Edie (Ciao Baby), Soul
Asylum, Sweet Soul Sister, New York City
That's all for now.:)
Posted
Tuesday,
July 13, 2004
Psycho Self Survey: Productivity and
Other Useless Wastes of Time
Haven't been in a very blogging mood lately. Been
too busy writing. Been hammering out stories at a very high
rate of speed.) This got me
curious. Dana once predicted that I would
live until I was 99 and write a hundred fan fics. It
would appear that in the near future, she will be half
right. So instead of writing tonight, I took a bit of
an ETBC inventory. Without further ado, ETBC alminac of
madness.
Total Stories Completed*: 79
Average Words Per Story:
13,508.7
Average Pages Per Story: 37.329
Total Pages Written: 2949
Total Words Written: 1,067,191
Shortest Story Written:
Mystery of the Galloping Sadde - 1,292 Words, 4 Pages
Longest Story Written:
Fratman and Brian - 71,074 Words, 159 Pages
First Story Posted: March 1st,
2000.
Crossovers wth other series: Encyclopedia
Brown, The Mad Scientist's Club
Eric's Favorites of his Mystery
Stories: Very Spooky Mystery, Ghost in the Machine, Bugs in the
System
Eric's Favorites of his Drama
Stories: Scriptiamus Sanamus, Fratman and Brian
Eric's Favorites of his Funny Stories:
Burned (Collateral Damage), This Boy's Life, Dan's Ark, The Mystery
that was Just Wrong
Stories Eric Wrote in One
Sitting: 16
Stories that took the longest to
finish: Will You Live Again?, Fratman and Brian
Number of full computer games Eric
completed while he was trying to finish these stories: 8.
Number of people who threatened to
take away his video card so that he would stop playing games and write:
3
Stories in Progress: Around five
Unposted "Smut File" Stories:
Four completed, several more unfinished.
Favorite Fanmail: Email I
got from a former NSA agent.
Favorite Negative Comment:
"Jim and Hallie? What were you thinking?"
Comment that had the most effect on
what I was going to write and do with my universe: "Please keep
Jim and Trixie together."
Story that has generated the most
feedback: Scriptiamus Sanamus
Guest appearances of ETBC characters
in other universes: Corey Dawson in Kate's Sins of the
Father. Junior has appeared twice in Mary's universe.
Fans' favorite ETBC original
character: Junior the Cat. Cat in real life
was named for him.
Collaborating & Guest Authors:
Mary & Kyrie in Plausible Excusability
Number of other author's Eric has
approached about collaborating that declined to or never got around to
it: Two
*These counts and averages do
not count the unposted "Smut file" stories
Here is the full table if I haven't put you to sleep with boredom
yet.:) Although there is a lot of overlap in the timeline
in certain areas, most notably during Trixie's senior year of high
school, this is pretty much the order they happen in.
Out of universe stories are listed at the very end.
Tile
|
Story Number
|
Word Count
|
Page Count
|
The Prohibition Mystery
|
N/A
|
4,981
|
14
|
Encyclopedia Brown Meets Trixie
Belden
|
N/A
|
6,959
|
24
|
Blinking Eye Chapter 1.5 - How
the Diamond Got to New York
|
N/A
|
4,212
|
11
|
Blinking Eye Epilogue
|
N/A
|
3,726
|
10
|
The Very Spooky Mystery: The
Director's Cut
|
#1
|
31,162
|
82
|
The Mystery of the Obnoxious
Horse
|
#2
|
4,351
|
13
|
The Mystery One Dark and Stormy
Night
|
#3
|
16,667
|
49
|
The Really Cheesy Mystery
|
#4
|
7,434
|
23
|
The Mystery of the Savant's Hand
|
#5
|
31,343
|
80
|
Salt & Spice and Everything
Nice
|
Secret Moments, Hidden Lives #2
|
3,964
|
13
|
Stockholm Hijinx
|
#6
|
5,315
|
16
|
Burned (Collateral Damage)
|
#7
|
13,687
|
39
|
The Cat Who Joined the Bob-Whites |
#8
|
10,361
|
30
|
Life's Little Pleasures (and Big
Cases)
|
#9
|
6,381
|
19
|
Second Degree Burned: The Naked
(Wet) Truth
|
#10
|
17,796
|
50
|
Scriptiamus Sanamus (formerly
known as the Dreaded Part 9)
|
#11
|
49,887
|
97
|
The Mystery of the Raving
Psychopath: The Director's Cut
|
#12
|
20,740
|
58
|
Where's Dan?: The Uncut Version
|
#13
|
9,864
|
29
|
Dan Mangan in 90 Seconds
|
#14
|
8,870
|
22
|
Will You Live Again?
|
#15
|
56,021
|
143
|
Third Degree Burned: I Think
About Rough Burns
|
#16
|
20,590
|
53
|
Cryptography
|
#17
|
12,876
|
34
|
Days of Death: The Thought that
Counts
|
#18
|
9,312
|
25
|
The Mystery that was Just Wrong
|
#19
|
10,365
|
28
|
The Cat Before Christmas
|
#20
|
1,536
|
6
|
Voices
|
#21
|
10,078
|
26
|
This Boy's Life
|
#22
|
16,692
|
43
|
Lazy Days
|
#23
|
5,378
|
14
|
Pomp and Circumstantial Evidence
|
#24
|
7,643
|
20
|
The Mosh-Whites of the Glen
|
#25
|
16,750
|
43
|
Cough Syrup
|
Secret Moments, Hidden Lives #3
|
1,437
|
4
|
The Ghost in the Machine
|
#26
|
21,955
|
45
|
In the Absence of Light
|
#27
|
4,404
|
11
|
Gettin' Jimmy with It
|
#28
|
11,261
|
36
|
The Nerve (Gas) of Some People
|
#29
|
6,536
|
15
|
The Musicians of Sleepyside
|
#30
|
10,772
|
30
|
The Song Fic . . . OF DEATH
|
#31
|
12,469
|
12
|
Desecrated Septic Tank Human
Remains: Live from Flippin'
|
#32
|
9,691
|
22
|
Jingle Bell Death Metal
|
Secret Moments, Hidden Lives #5
|
4,636
|
14
|
Is it Home Yet?
|
Secret Moments, Hidden Lives #4
|
7,305
|
21
|
Dan's Ark
|
#33
|
16,339
|
47
|
Fratman and Brian
|
#34
|
71,074
|
159
|
Gimmie the ASKOF
|
Secret Moments, Hidden Lives #6
|
7,738
|
22
|
Slippery Payback
|
Secret Moments, Hidden Lives #1
|
2,533
|
7
|
Forever and Tonight: Uncut
Version
|
#100
|
29,521
|
72
|
Attempted Murder on the Orient
Express
|
#101
|
18,878
|
51
|
Trixie Belden: The Justice Files
|
#102
|
13,546
|
36
|
The Nature of the Snake
|
#103
|
17,573
|
45
|
Bugs in the System
|
#104
|
26,233
|
71
|
Stockholm Revenge
|
#105
|
5,049
|
16
|
Plausible Excusability
|
#106
|
6,155
|
20
|
Old Misty Mountain
|
#107
|
8,642
|
23
|
Songs and Vengeance
|
#108
|
17,762
|
45
|
Pavlov's Dog, Jung's Wolf
|
#109
|
39,489
|
99
|
Mystery Points
|
#110
|
11,585
|
32
|
Trixie Belden: The New Justice
Files
|
#111
|
8,123
|
21
|
The Nemesis Within
|
#112
|
29,837
|
78
|
In the Shadow of the Happy
Valley of Death
|
#113
|
47,044
|
111
|
Operation Rainbow Gold: A
Justice Files Special
|
#114
|
7,976
|
21
|
Mystery of the Librarian's
Husband
|
#115 - Case One
|
3,022
|
10 |
The Game Show Mystery
|
#115 - Case Two
|
4,115
|
9
|
Adventures on Surveillance
|
#115 - Case Three
|
3,506
|
11
|
The Mystery of the Galloping
Saddle
|
#115 - Case Four
|
1,292
|
4
|
The One Million Mile Club:
Flight of the Star of Sleepyside
|
#116
|
10,470
|
30
|
Burgers are from Mars,
Cheesecake is from Venus
|
#117
|
6,935
|
20
|
Legacy of Damnation
|
#118
|
21,396
|
58
|
Requiem for the Damned
|
#119
|
7,581
|
20
|
Day of the Jim
|
Secret Moments, Hidden Lives #7
|
6,717
|
21
|
The Boots in the Fog
|
#120
|
33,876
|
92
|
Paradise: The Perfect Drug
|
#121
|
17,918
|
49
|
Shredded Slippers in Heaven
|
#122
|
3,662
|
11
|
Just Because You're Paranoid |
#123
|
10,644
|
29
|
Brom's Legacy
|
#124
|
11,566
|
34
|
Death, Hell & Satan
|
#125
|
8,470
|
23
|
Burned 4: AFTERBURNER
|
#126
|
12,370
|
35
|
Apocalypse Now (Or Your Money
Back)
|
N/A
|
3,712
|
13
|
It's in the way that you do it
|
N/A
|
3,443
|
10
|
Serenity in Murder
|
N/A
|
12,263
|
36
|
Cosmo McNaught and the Crisis on
Space Station X
|
N/A
|
4,319
|
9
|
Tentative Future Schedule of Upcoming Stories (Details and order
may be subject to change with no notice):
Food for the Gods
|
#127
|
?
|
?
|
Day of the Orchid
|
#128
|
?
|
?
|
The New Belden-Wheeler Detective
Agency Case Files
|
#129
|
?
|
?
|
The House That Hate Built
|
#130
|
?
|
?
|
For the Love of War
|
#131
|
?
|
?
|
Song Fic . . . OF DEATH 2: The
Song Remains Deranged
|
#132
|
12,082
|
28
|
Oh GOD do I need to get a life . . . .
I have set a goal for myself however. I want to complete
enough stories to have a 100 in one year's time. I think I
can do it. The ones above are very far along, and with any luck I'll
have them done by the end of the summer. Then it may finally be
time to put the Chronicles to bed.
Although it doesn't have to be this anal or thorough, if any of you
other fan fic writers are brave enough, I'd love to see what you have
accomplished in terms of amount of writing.:)
Posted
Saturday,
July 3, 2004